A broken heart or a broken head???

 SCENE 1:
 I had a breakthrough yesterday....A guy friend of mine told a close girl-friend of mine that he liked her and wanted to go out with her....okay he was a little drunk but he knew what he was talking about and he knew that she already had a boyfriend and is pretty stuck on him...but even then he had the guts to tell her that he liked her even though he knew nothing would happen.....I have never interacted much with this guy-friend of mine...but only in the last few days he has been going through certain personal problems and I am just a person trying to help him out....we are becoming good friends now....
Anyway, the girl obviously said that its very gut-full and brave of him to come up and say this to her..but she can't do anything about it because she already likes somebody else.....
a broken heart.. but the guy gracefully backed out and now him and the girl are back on good terms friendship wise....a fight broke out between him and another guy after a few minutes on a different issue...but it was only an argument and finished soon...
SCENE 2:
Another broken heart roams around the streets of Aurangabad-drunk....A 1st year student of our college..a boy who apparently broke up with a 3rd year student came back drunk to the hostel today...got into an argument with his seniors in the hostel...the argument turned into an ugly fight...and now the boy is fighting for his life in the ICU in a nearby hospital...the seniors apparently hit him with wood sticks on his head and bashed him up completely...these seniors were the 2nd year boys...and when the 1st yr boys saw the 2nd yrs hitting a 1st yr boy, they all got angry and attacked the 2nd yrs with chairs, chains and their functioning body parts.....
The boys hostel was shaking ....screams, roars, cries, curses ...all flying around and we girls in our hostels could see some of it as the boys hostel is just next to us....
For 3 whole hours we didn't know what to do and what to say...we started calling our friends in the boys hostel...they started calling us...news started to spread ..about that drunk guy...the seniors...the wooden sticks...and all we could do was stare outside the windows from our washrooms and pantry's...I in particular was sitting on a sink and seeing out through a small semi-broken window and saw when the principal came in the hostel in his car and when he left and what other faculty was present in the boys hostel etc etc.....
All my friends were thankfully not hurt...they all fought initially but later locked themselves in their rooms....and kept looking out from the windows itself....the situation refused to simmer down....
Its 4:30 in the morning now and I am still awake....the situation now has thankfully calmed down...the 2nd yrs have been shifted from the hostel and the principal is still speaking to the first yrs...thanks to the guy mentioned in scene 1 that I know all this....
I can barely open my eyes...I have a practical class at 9:30 in the morning...but I can't stop wondering about the 2 situations...both the guys were little drunk..in both the cases a fight broke out....look what happened in situation 1 and look what happened in situation 2....
The drunk guy who got beat up in scene 2 has apparently hurt himself badly above his left eye and nose...he is in the ICU and his mom has been called to Aurangabad from the first flight tomorrow.....
I pity him...why did he have to answer back the 2nd yr senior in the first place...why did the senior have to hit him that badly knowing that he is drunk....questions better left unanswered I think......



 

The blue line...

So yeah, I have a faint blue line in my lower left leg, starting from the knee till the heel of my foot....
also signs of another blue line are starting to show on my right foot....I just hope it's something normal to do with the nerves and all....
Convocation for the 4th yr students is on for tomorrow and dayafter....I can't even imagine how excited those guys must be about their graduation...
Preparation for the food started from today itself, and being a culinary student, I was chosen to help. Thanks to my left leg and my right foot, I kept getting tired easily, but I did whatever I could do. Me and Srishti cut about 30 packets of mushrooms, blanched them, cooled them and sealed them for tomorrow, then we cut onions for sometime..or rather Srishti cut onions for sometime and I continued cutting for a longer time as Srishti's eyes are sensitive to onions( Oh man you should have seen her when we went down to the pre-prep area to get the onions to peel and cut...her face was red within seconds and tears were pouring out from her eyes like Niagara Falls...she was looking so cute!!!!) ....so yeah I cut onions then for a little longer time...helped a bit here and there around with the concasse(tomato puree made by finely chopped tomatoes)....got really really tired....and now am finally back in the hostel...resting..!
I can barely open my eyes, but in the next 12 hrs, I have to have something to eat, have to study, have to read the book that I am reading about Britain's Culture and Food, have to watch at least 2 episodes(otherwise I usually watch atleast 4 episodes!) of Two and a Half men on my laptop, have to take a bath and SLEEP!
I'll probably sort out my cupboard tomorrow...uuf!
What a day right???
anyway..hope you all had an even more interesting day than I did....
That's all for today..
ciao! keepwell

The kitten jumps out!

Me and 2 other friends of mine tried to rescue a kitten in our girls hostel today....thanks to the sewage pipeline and high-tension wires and cables...we couldn't do it....we had to let go....plus the kitten started to make "zzzsssshh" noises that made us think whether we had made the right choice to rescue it or not!

This happened some time in the evening today after college. Later at night while talking to a friend of mine(on the phone) on how certain things should be left as they are and how one should not worry much about a thing or a situation or a person....we were just talking that sometimes things don't really have to have a reason to happen...they take their own time..and you know- happen..one shouldn't think much about how, why, when or how...

guess what happened next...I saw the kitten jump out of the place where it was stuck! I could see it poke its head out a couple of times...but I couldn't really do anything...and suddenly after about 5-10 mins...it just jumped out like a spring....

Moral of the story:  Don't think too much about a situation in which you can't really HELP much or a situation in which you can't really DO much...If the right thing has to happen -it will happen!

So you would say interesting day huh?...This moral didn't hit me at that very minute....but after my conversations were over with that friend of mine...I realised the moral! funny thing isn't???

so the kitten finally jumps out! It had to happen! 

changes...

New changes in the blog are evident...
It's a nice past-time...
Please do visit the links mentioned especially -Livestrong, ONE campaign, Climate Crisis etc...
Your support is gravely required and will be appreciated.
I finally finished the book that I had been reading since last few weeks.."Every Second Counts" by Lance Armstrong. His first book "It's not about the bike" blew my mind out completely and the second one has transformed me into a totally different person...
my exams are coming up soon...I can't wait for them to start and finish...
A month from now I'll be sitting in London and probably enjoying the life out of me!
Search for as much information about London and Brighton is still on..and believe me I have found quite a lot...!
Did you know that in Trafalgar Square, London, there is a very famous monument known as Nelson's Column. Nelson's column is guarded by 4 huge bronze lions. These lions have been made out of metal from guns that had been taken from old battleships! And only these guns were used -nothing else!
I can't wait to go there....can't wait to eat the food there..meet the people there...Can't wait to go to HARRODS!!!!
Ok ok am getting carried away...but I can't help it!!! haha...
Well so here is the main thing for today...there is a friend of mine who is suffering from an internal mental pain of some kind...she is not ill and she she does not have a disease..it's just that she is going through a tough phase right now...having spoken to her about it many times from a distance of 1500 + kms...I would again like to say this to her...There are parts unknown with regard to human performance, and those are the parts when it's just about pain and forfeit. How do you make yourself do it? You remind yourself that you are fulfilling your obligation to get the best from yourself, and that all achievement is born out of sacrifice.
The experience of suffering is like the experience of exploring, of finding something unexpected and revelatory. When you find the outermost thresholds of pain, or fear, or uncertainty, what you experience afterward is an expansive feeling, a widening of your capabilities.
PAIN IS GOOD because it teaches your body and your soul to improve. It's as though your unconscious says, "I'm going to remember this, remember how it hurt, and I'll increase my capacities so that the next time, it doesn't hurt as much". The body literally builds on your experiences, and a physique and temperament that have gone through a situation one time will be better the next time, because it has the memory to build upon. If you lead a largely unexamined life, you will eventually hit a wall. Some barriers can be invisible until you smack into them. The key then, is to investigate the wall inside yourself, so you can go beyond it. The only way to do that is to ask yourself painful questions-just as you try to stretch yourself physically.
Later in life you will not see this phase as a bad memory ..but rather a good one...a strong one because it ill remind you of the time you GOT BACK UP AND MOVED ON.
Anything you need, I will always be there for you.
Why don't people understand this...THERE ARE BIGGER PROBLEMS ON THIS PLANET!!!!
There is somebody who at this very second is battling through Cancer...who knows it could be a 5 year old girl or boy...Somebody at this very second has been told that s/he has AIDS...you could say "what can I do in that ..that's his/her life and this is mine...." That's where you are missing out on the message....That's exactly where! The message being sent out or given out is that you can seperate the good problems and the bad problems more over you can differentiate between the urgent problems and unnecessary problems in your life...breaking up with a boyfriend or girlfriend is a temporary problem and is not supposed to be a life-threatening or life-giving issue..whereas global warming is an issue which I think needs more concern!!!
That's all for today...
ciao! and keepwell...

Happy Holi....

Happy Holi to all my readers....
have been a little busy since last few days, and by busy I mean lazy...so since today is Holi I had no choice but to wish you all and finally update my blog.
Starting from where I left, my Food Production exam went well. My chef said I could have done much better...but even then he was happy enough to give me an 'A'!!! And yes I got a chicken preparation-white chicken stew to be exact! Yay!
These last few days have been quite a journey. In this last week I have honestly learnt a lot about myself and others. Stuff or rather emotions that I never thought I would feel -I felt. Stuff I never thought I would think about-I thought. To name a few...
1. On Thursday, me and a few friends of mine had attended a party. Long story short-there were 6 of us girls together and 3 out of us 6 were drunk and got high. I was obviously not one of those 3.
The 'drunk trio' became crazy when we reached back to the hostel. They suddenly started to cry, suddenly started to laugh...suddenly started to dance, suddenly started to sing...oh man it was entertaining..one of them kept falling everywhere..we had to put our mattresses on the floor in case they don't fall on their heads and hurt themselves...one of them cried 'cause she couldn't help but feel that her friends would leave her someday..so she kept saying, "don't leave me...don't leave me..". The 2nd one cried because her ex-boyfriend didn't love her enough...the 3rd one...I don't even know where to start and end about her.
All the while when all them were talking(and crying!), I couldn't help but wonder what this drug alcohol is.
Its bad for you when you exceed your limit. But in my opinion, one should consume more of it when one is low or down. That way you get to take it all out and get free from your emotions without even knowing it..so that way the truth always comes out...I maybe wrong..or rather I may be sending out a wrong message, but I'll go with my theory....I couldn't help but get amazed by this thing called alcohol and wonder about what the hell happens inside that brain of your's once you start gulping down glasses of vodka or whiskey or whatever....
2. WHAT DO I DO IF I HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEBODY AND HE IS GOING OUT WITH SOMEBODY ELSE???? KEEP IN MIND THAT THIS IS ONE OF THE BIGGEST CRUSHES I HAVE EVER HAD AND I DON'T LIKE THAT "SOMEBODY ELSE"!!!!!!
3. About a year back my biggest and grandest dream was to be able to solve an accountancy problem...but now...I want to travel the whole world. And I mean the whole world. I want to do the catering for the Academy Awards i.e. the Oscars(Wolfgang Puck -I am coming!) and 3rd I want to settle down in Italy..anywhere in Italy and open a branch of  small but successful restaurants and own a vineyard. Though currently I know nothing about wines..its a pretty deep subject...but life hasn't finished right?
Oh man I have matured!
4. I also dream of working with the following organisations someday. After 15-20 years of doing well as a chef, I want to work with UNESCO or WHO and I also want to work with the LANCE ARMSTRONG FOUNDATION for CANCER. My restaurants will keep running, but alongside I will also be doing such social work. Oh yes how can I forget the main thing- Work with the former vice-president of United States of  America, honorable AL Gore on the issue of GLOBAL WARMING.
BIG THINKING ISN'T??? But I love it when I think like this....I love MYSELF when I dream about all this stuff....
Anyway, I guess that's all for today...
ciao!
keepwell

practical exam or what?

I'd go with "or what"....
I had my Final Bakery Practical exam today..and guess what...it could not have gone better....
My bread rolls...they always come out of the oven cracked...always!
I make other things like chocolate mousse, orange souffle, cookies etc etc..and everything turns out well..but my bread rolls..no no no...they always come out cracked. BUT TODAY..ALL MY BREAD ROLLS WERE PERFECT! Not even a single one of them (out of 16 rolls) was cracked...and plus keep in mind I had to throw away my first batch of dough because it didn't turn out well as I had forgotten to add salt and sugar! And losing time in the 3 hrs that we all had been given, that means uh oh trouble!...But I did it..I had no choice but to do it again!...So 3 things it were...bread rolls, genoise sponge and chocolate mousse (mine turned out in layers...but thx to a friend of mine who came to the rescue!)
tomorrow I have my Food Production Operation Practical Exam....now that, I am scared about...
I hope I don't get a fish preparation....I like fish, love it infact. But since tomorrow is an exam, the idea of my fillet going wrong is starting to scare me a little bit...I can manage chicken..its more ..errr..friendlier to cut..A fish on the other hand, I find is more conservative..I mean while you are cutting fillets..you have to keep checking whether you are cutting right or not..whether you have any bones coming in the flesh or whether there is any flesh sticking to the bones...its a tough job..I like doing it..and I can do it...but I just don't want to do it tonmorrow!...A chicken is much more easy and flexible to handle...the joints in the chicken help you cut it...and plus if you are getting bored you can stick your hand inside the whole chicken and make it walk across the chopping board...you know, like a puppet...try doing it the next time you cut a chicken...you wouldn't be able to do it without a naughty smile on your face...! haha...
that way lobsters would be fun to deal with too!
anyway...great day today...hope its a great day tomorrow too....
ciao people..have to go study...I think i'll start with fish...
keepwell.

No College!

As our practical exams have started this week, and as there are only 2 practical exams to give...the rest of the week, as I came to know yesterday, has become a holiday! some students have their exams on Tuesday, some today, some have on Wednesday...etc etc..I have my exams on Tuesday,thats tomorrow, and then on Wednesday...so the rest of the days-PARTY!!!
Hey there dear readers,
I had a major breakdown yesterday evening...emotions finally gave way...I cried silently on my bed for like 10 mins,then a friend of mine saw me cry and then my other friends who were in my room apparently copying movies and songs, saw me cry too..and I completely broke down.
We went out for dinner. Eating food like a pig does help when you are down! After dinner, the 6 of us went to have ice-cream. I am totally fine now. It was pointless to think about all the stuff that I thought about. But its okay, at least I am not sad anymore...my exam is tomorrow and I cannot afford to be sad! It's bakery after all!!!
And do you know what did it? My friends!!!!! Room number 57 and 58 rocks! I mean come on, when I was crying and telling my friends that I was missing my mom...Divya too started to cry and then she even had the guts to tell me that I shouldn't cry because it makes her cry!!! haha...I mean is that sweet or what...selfish yes, but....haha...
Then there is Sugandh. And oh is she awesome or what! She is just too great...she is so straight-forward and funny that one sentence out of her mouth sometimes makes you roll on the floor!
Siri. She is just supercool!...I can share anything with her knowing that I am always going to get a helpful reply.
Srishti. Karate champ. black belt. She is like a cute kid who loves eating praws and also loves Shahrukh Khan like I do!
And then there is Pooja. Oh man if I had a nickel for everytime she has been there for me, I'd be super-rich by now!
I love all of them. If there is God, then he has certainly made up for he did 2 years and 165 days back. Maybe not completely, but till some level, I'd like to think yeah.....
So now here I am...Monday morning and for the first time in my life I think I have woken up so early on a holiday..usually it's around 12 in the afternoon when my eyes start to open (no wonder my room-mates locked me out yesterday!)
Thanks guys....not only these 5, but to all my friends! thanks for everything....
ciao!
P.S : hope my bread rolls turn out well tomorrow!
keepwell. 

life?

My mother passed away when i was 15. it's been 2 years and 164 days. Since then i have been questioning life. Questions that my father cannot answer, that my friends cannot answer, my grandparents cannot answer....After my mom died, a big part of my heart died too. That part can never be fixed.
Looking at my mother live made me and my father realize that there are bigger problems on this planet and the fact that we crib about life when it comes to issues like what napkins to use with which plates or which glasses and when the husband decides the blue ones, the wife barks at him in front of the kid and replaces the blue ones with the red ones....makes us kind of stupid and makes our lives unworthy.
whatever you are going through..its ok, there are bigger problems on this planet...look at a person who was told that she would only survive for 2 yrs but because of her willpower she went on to survive for 12, proving all medical books and doctors wrong. Am not saying that my mom had the biggest problem...but knowing that there are other terrible and horrific problems out there ..makes you fell that the problem you have is nothing and can be easily overcomed.
I have been low since a few days, and the worst part is I don't even know why. I don't know why.My mom is on my mind everyday...but I am never as sad as i have been since last few days....its not her. But i guess its just the feeling of what would it be like if she were here. She couldn't see me take admission in college...She couldn't see me  make friends here...she couldn't see how well I was doing in college both academically and otherwise...I am missing her a lot these days and I can't even tell anyone about it...I cannot talk to my father and I cannot talk to my friends..this is such a sick feeling and i hope no one ever in this world would have to go through this....
I look around and I see my friends talk about marriage and love and all of that stuff....as proud as I am of being a tomboy...all this stuff is toooo girly for me and frankly i dont like it. But do I think of it? I used to. But now I don't, Because now I dont believe in it...I don't believe that love lasts forever...my mother died...the love story there didnt quite finish .sometimes my dad and my stepmom fight till the point where i actually think that both of them oneday may just shoot the other one in his/her sleep....I feel scared...my parents never fought...not even behind my back....they were best friends and knew each other inside out...but now this is an arranged marriage...and its not like i wasn't involved in the decision-making 'cause I was...and am not saying that my father should not have got married again...i encouraged that he should...but here its about me...all of this scarred me quite deeply and I had no idea whom to turn to for help....a diary helps....blogging on the other hand is risky ..leaving everything out in the open for everyone....but i want this to help...
I am not depressed...uh uh no no!...I live my life to the FULLEST...you can say, that nobody can do that ..but I can..I have proved it to myself. period.
I feel weird talking about marriages, weddings, love, Girlfriends, boyfriends...(and no i have never had a boyfriend..and no i do not feel sad about the fact that everyone around me has one...but yeah crushes...that's hormonal right?...am going through a crush-phase right now..and it's so not making my life easier...!) ....soul mates, "the one", prince charming, etc etc...you get the picture right....my friends say I am denying reality...but on the other hand I am embracing it...because when all this doesn't happen, it breaks your heart...yes I do want to get married in the future...probably to a good friend of mine..I do not want a big fat fancy wedding....I do not want a swaroski studded wedding gown...I do not want a big rock..i just want it to be simple ..but all the while loving..I want good food on that day ...but it's not like I have already decided what is going to be on the menu like some girls have( no offence to them at all....that's you and I am me!)...
I am scared ...and not because am scared of  whats going to happen if I dont get married or about how am I going to get married 'cause it's tooooo early to think of that....but I am just scared if all the things that have happened or are happening ..have scarred me in someway...
Why the hell do girls talk about marriages..and aarrggh! all of that stuff...why is this out of all things in our woman-blood???..Guys that way are cooler...just living life the way it comes...am not saying that I like guys who womanize around.no no...but just that..guys dont think as annoyingly deeply about all this stuff like the way girls do...
my mom would have been the best person to talk to about all of this stuff....
am not trying to make any point here...its just random.

day 2...

Okay. nice day today....Sunday morning....no college...no waking up early ...
unfortunately for me...I can't see all this. Why? because my room-mates left for breakfast while i was still sleeping and guess what?...they locked the door from outside. And the best part is they left around 9 and didn't come back for 3 hours....I woke up an hour after they had left because i badly wanted to go to the bathroom...but thanks to the magical properties of a lock i couldn't! Why did they have to lock the door and leave me inside screaming for a bathroom...and am not finished ..I didn't even have balance in my phone...I had to tell another friend of mine to call my room-mates and tell them that i need them to open the lock. my room-mates had suddenly decided to go visit a lake...for 2 hours i wished i was a dead person!
but never-the-less...its Sunday...its "God's day"...if some people like to call it that....
So now here I am...wondering what to do next..i have a list made out of what all i am to do for the next month....i have my exams coming up..practical and theory both...i have to finish my diary, i have to read the NatGeo magazine that i have on my table..it has been staring at me since last 3 days and is wondering why it hasn't been opened yet..i have to find out information about London as i am going there on 20th april for a month to visit my uncle and aunt and my cousins.....
if there is anybody out there who has been to London and around..I could definitely use some experiences of yours ...probably the places you liked the best..stuff that i shouldn't miss at all...stuff that i have to buy at any cost...places where i can get cheap stuff..good places to eat...maybe cheap places to eat...rather reasonable places to eat...how the people there are..etc etc...
anyway..i dont know where to start from..but i guess i'll start with the right thing and thats studying..my bakery practical exam is day after tomorrow....hope it goes well...
till then..ciao!
and keepwell.

first words....

hey there reader!
my first post..my first blog....i have no idea how i am going to go about with this....and by this i mean my first post and the blog in general...both...
yesterday i saw the movie 'Julie and Julia'...and i couldnt help but wonder about two things...
1. what would it be like when i become a professional chef? (am undergoing a 4yr course to become one, am in the 1st yr presently) and,
2. what would it be like to have my own blog?
and now that i have created a blog, i am actually stuck and have no idea what to write....in the movie at least julie knew what she was doing?.....
anyway....i guess this blog is mostly going to be about stuff like global warming, cancer, livestrong, repowering america-repowering the world, united nations....and many other things that i have been wanting to talk about since so many days...i like thinking about such stuff..and no i am not a depressed person...so on the lighter side this blog will also speak of music, movies,travel and my favourite topic....food and chefs around the world!....
hope this goes well....
ciao!
keepwell.